I Wish it Were Different
I Wish If I were a Little bit Braver...
But I never were....
If I say I would change would it matter,
Would it make a Different...?!
A Lie was once told but it broke a lot of thing with it,
to go back and fix whats broken Would be hard...
and Would be another Lie...
Trying to fix a Lie with another lie is pathetic I think...
If I tell you I wish I could make a Different....
And that this Wish is Like a Dream that will never come true or a Life...
Will I be killing what little Hope that was Left..?!
12-10-2012 10:28 PM
Yours: AmyBadr
Bad Times
But I never were....
If I say I would change would it matter,
Would it make a Different...?!
A Lie was once told but it broke a lot of thing with it,
to go back and fix whats broken Would be hard...
and Would be another Lie...
Trying to fix a Lie with another lie is pathetic I think...
If I tell you I wish I could make a Different....
And that this Wish is Like a Dream that will never come true or a Life...
Will I be killing what little Hope that was Left..?!
12-10-2012 10:28 PM
Yours: AmyBadr
Bad Times
Long Day
The lingering memory keeps on hunting me...
I Wish I could let go
I wish I could forget and erase all the past sometimes
Cause it hurts being here without u
I feel like am the only one trying to make it right
I feel like i don't exists in your memory anymore and that hurts me more...
I stopped doing things that i used to like, feeling like it doesn't matter anymore...
Searching for myself in this world seems so hard to do...
Now I Know I am empty without u...
My Life seems to has no meaning without u...
Maybe i got used to someone there in my life...
but now i shut myself down and push everyone away...
cause i don't want to feel like this again...
i don't want to depend on someone to live my life afraid that i would get hurt again...
but the truth i wish i could find someone who can help me find my own way...
Yours: AmyBadr
1:37 PM
16-2-2016
Find Myself
I wrote it once,
And I will write it again
Because all that is there to say
Is my thoughts and feelings
And it all revolve around the same
thing
All that am doing is trying to say it
In a different way
Maybe one day I found out what I want
to say
After reading them all and write one
thousand words
Or maybe even a million… or more…
I would understand and know what I wanted
to say
I wish life was easier I wish one
word could explain it all
I wish there was a book to make us
learn how to live
How to walk alone and depend on yourself,
How to find the courage and strength
to do what u want and believe in…
I wish I could do what’s good instead
of doing what’s bad because it’s easier,
I wish I find my own way one day…
I wish I achieve what I want to
achieve and stop running and hide because it’s hard,
I wish I stop living in fantasy
world,
I wish I could stop living in this
fake world,
I wish I could find the truth and
myself even if it’s hard…
Knowing that it’s hard and it’s just
a wish my heart made
It’s like a dream that will never
come true it really hurts…
I don’t know how to end it or what to
say,
But I think I’m giving up…
I wish it was different… I wish I have
what it takes to do what I really want… but the truth I don’t have it…
So all I can do is stand where I am
waiting…
Waiting for what I don’t even know….
But all I know that am living every
day in fear and pain…
Hopeless… wishing for a far away star…
wishing if I reach my hand I could hold it…
Yours: AmyBadr
8:44 PM
25-07-2015
I Want A Place Where I Can Fly...
Where ever I go whatever I
say
Whatever I do
Will anything change?
Losing hope…
Not knowing what to say or
what to do
Don’t know if it’s right
or wrong
Don’t understand what’s
the meaning lying behind the words
Don’t know if I can live
and act like I know everything
Don’t know how to live
in this world
What should I do?
What should I not do?
Where to run
Where to hide
When to stop
How to fall
How to get up after the
fall
How to climb this
mountain
How to conquer this wall
to go forward
Where to go from where I
stand
Should I just remain
where I am?
Can I do it?
Can I do what I want?
Can I remain the same no
matter what?
Where should I go?
I want a place where I feel
free
I want a place where I can
fly
Where I can say the
truth and not get hurt with it
Where I be me not
someone else
Where I can accept
myself and live free
Away from all the
constraints…
Can I do that?
Can I just stay away
from life and its complications?
Yours: AmyBadr
1:18 AM
29-7-2014
A Mystery…!
A mystery…!
What have I told u about it…?
It’s all a mystery…
Walking on this path what pain us the most is also a
mystery…
Words I keep deep inside is also a mystery
Believing in life and walking along the path that u
are given,
Even though it’s a road u hates…
That because in our life we never learned how to
choose or do what we love,
We learned to do things to make us survive…
U never learn what u should do when u are lost
That’s all a mystery…
Our life is a mystery for us
No one know how it will turn out
We just go along the road that’s given to us
Yes we act and choose whether to do that or no
Yes we have the choice but we never know what’s
behind it
We just go along and wait for the consequence
I…?! What have I done that’s so right…?!
I always keep asking myself that… but I found that I
have done nothing
And that pain me…
Why am living my life the way I do…?! I could never
know or understand…
A mystery u tells me…!
Why…?!
I even don’t understand myself so how am going to
live…?!
All my questions I think I have there answer but
what am going to do with them it’s also a mystery to me…
Maybe I’ll act as I don’t know…
Maybe I’ll stay where I am and don’t do anything…
Maybe I’ll get angry and cry but tomorrow I will act
as I’ve forgot and that nothing happened…
Maybe I’ll run and hide…
I have all choices but I never learned what to do
when am desperate…
I never learned what to do when I feel lost…
I never learned what to do when am confused…
So no matter what I choose I should learn from it…
But why I don’t learn?! Why I always choose the
path.. Even though I know it hurts…?!
It’s all a mystery to me…
I’ll never know I think…
As I said before what if we changed the world but
people remained the same will it make a different…?! Because I don’t think so…
Yours: AmyBadr
10:32 PM
3-7-2013
If The Idea Still in My Mind..?!
If the idea still in my mind..?!
Does that mean that I still have hope...?!
Does that mean if I never give up I can achieve
whatever I want…?!
If it’s like that am really grateful to be given
this chance
For the people who make me know that I still have a
chance…
For the people who walk me up every time I give up…
And tell me to move on and don’t give up
I know habits doesn’t change over one night
And I won’t say I will do or I will change
I won’t lie and say I will try
I will say I know what I want but I don’t know what
am going to do
I hope I walk forward to achieve it
And I will always wait for myself till I take one
step forward
And like they say the first step is the hardest
Once u began everything will be easier
I don’t know after finishing writing this what I will
do
Or even if I will change…
But I hope the day will come when I proudly write
here that I have accomplished what I always wanted…
So please give me the chance…
So please encourage me…
So please when am sad and about to give up
Hold my hand and tell me it’s gone be alright
And that I can do whatever I wanted if I just
believed in myself
I don’t want to have anymore regrets
I already have many that I can’t count
Don’t make me regret all my life
Make me walk up when am sleep…
Make me do what’s right because that what I really
want…
Tell me everyday who am I…?!
Make me remember myself and what I want and my
dreams…
Make me go forward…
I won’t say what I won’t do…?!
I will tell u it’s a wish for me to do first and u
tell me I have done it
When I walk up tomorrow I wish I remember what I’ve
said…
And do something about it…
Yours: AmyBadr
5:17 PM
22-6-2013
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