Find Myself




I wrote it once,
And I will write it again
Because all that is there to say
Is my thoughts and feelings
And it all revolve around the same thing
All that am doing is trying to say it In a different way
Maybe one day I found out what I want to say
After reading them all and write one thousand words
Or maybe even a million… or more…
I would understand and know what I wanted to say
I wish life was easier I wish one word could explain it all
I wish there was a book to make us learn how to live
How to walk alone and depend on yourself,
How to find the courage and strength to do what u want and believe in…
I wish I could do what’s good instead of doing what’s bad because it’s easier,
I wish I find my own way one day…
I wish I achieve what I want to achieve and stop running and hide because it’s hard,
I wish I stop living in fantasy world,
I wish I could stop living in this fake world,
I wish I could find the truth and myself even if it’s hard…
Knowing that it’s hard and it’s just a wish my heart made
It’s like a dream that will never come true it really hurts…
I don’t know how to end it or what to say,
But I think I’m giving up…
I wish it was different… I wish I have what it takes to do what I really want… but the truth I don’t have it…
So all I can do is stand where I am waiting…
Waiting for what I don’t even know….
But all I know that am living every day in fear and pain…
Hopeless… wishing for a far away star… wishing if I reach my hand I could hold it…
Yours: AmyBadr

8:44 PM
25-07-2015