I Wish If the Night Was Longer
I was just sitting there in my cold room
Holding my hot cup feeling its warmness
Listening to my music
About love and scarify and pain
All I could think of that it hurt so much hearing people stories
And what have they achieve and done in their life while am still the same
Standing in the same place with the same feeling
Always crying but there’s no change
Seasons change people come and go
And am becoming old but still standing there
Not even walking one step forward
I just stand there don’t do anything and that kill me inside so slowly
My tears keep in falling
I want change I want do something
But why I feel like I can’t
And here when my mind stops
And I feel like I want scream but no one hears me
And that’s when I finish my cup and it become cold
And everything become still
And everyone is sleeping but am still here
And that’s when I decided to come here…. To write about my story………
In my cold room all alone I open my window stay there looking around
While the air is touching my skin and I can feel it so cold
And I say maybe it will freeze the time and everything
Maybe like they say when my feet is cold I can’t feel the pain in my heart
I want it all go away and that’s when I realize it’s time for bed but I don’t want sleep
When it’s time to walk up I don’t want to it’s always like that
This dream seem so real and that feeling too
I can’t seem to do anything about it oh my god it’s not a dream
It’s real………..
And that’s when I stand there and freeze…………..
Urs: AmyBadr
4:46 AM 28-11-2011
