Dark

Far Away...

Far away…

A place I need to reach…

I Wish I could feel the wind…

So, I could fly away with my imagination…

But why I’m always falling instead of flying…

I was silent… and I got angry from myself…

Because my silence hurt me…

So, I decided to talk, but now it hurt more…

I wish I could return to my silent self, but I can’t no matter how much I try…

I changed to someone I hate…

Wish to change but can’t…

Looking back, I regret the point when I felt myself weak when I was silent

I was strong… but I found out that too late…

After I lost myself in my anger…

Now I wish I could control it…

Do you think… I could free myself and become weightless…

So, I could fly instead of keeping on falling…

Where should I Start...?!

I thinks with myself… change the way I think…!!

But how could someone change their way of thinking…

Sitting back thinking of I’m… & who I was…

I can’t think of anything… I feel regret, anger, sadness… loneliness…

Nothing Else… maybe I get my anger at people because I think they are the reason… of who I am today…

But the truth… I can’t blame anyone but myself…

Hopeless… but I wish I try…

Yours: AmyBadr

17-07-2020

10:07 PM

A Great Big World, Christina Aguilera - Say Something

I Wish If I were a Little bit Braver...
But I never were....

If I say I would change would it matter,
Would it make a Different...?!

A Lie was once told but it broke a lot of thing with it,
to go back and fix whats broken Would be hard...
and Would be another Lie...
Trying to fix a Lie with another lie is pathetic I think...

If I tell you I wish I could make a Different....
And that this Wish is Like a Dream that will never come true or a Life...
Will I be killing what little Hope that was Left..?!

12-10-2012 10:28 PM
Yours: AmyBadr
Bad Times

New Empire - A Little Braver (Official Music Video)

Christina Perri - I Believe Lyrics (Studio Version)

Numb (Official Video) - Linkin Park

Long Day

It's been a long day without u...
The lingering memory keeps on hunting me...
I Wish I could let go
I wish I could forget and erase all the past sometimes
Cause it hurts being here without u
I feel like am the only one trying to make it right
I feel like i don't exists in your memory anymore and that hurts me more...
I stopped doing things that i used to like, feeling like it doesn't matter anymore...
Searching for myself in this world seems so hard to do...
Now I Know I am empty without u...
My Life seems to has no meaning without u...
Maybe i got used to someone there in my life...
but now i shut myself down and push everyone away...
cause i don't want to feel like this again...
i don't want to depend on someone to live my life afraid that i would get hurt again...
but the truth i wish i could find someone who can help me find my own way...

Yours: AmyBadr

1:37 PM
16-2-2016

Find Myself

I wrote it once,

And I will write it again

Because all that is there to say

Is my thoughts and feelings

And it all revolve around the same thing

All that am doing is trying to say it In a different way

Maybe one day I found out what I want to say

After reading them all and write one thousand words

Or maybe even a million… or more…

I would understand and know what I wanted to say

I wish life was easier I wish one word could explain it all

I wish there was a book to make us learn how to live

How to walk alone and depend on yourself,

How to find the courage and strength to do what u want and believe in…

I wish I could do what’s good instead of doing what’s bad because it’s easier,

I wish I find my own way one day…

I wish I achieve what I want to achieve and stop running and hide because it’s hard,

I wish I stop living in fantasy world,

I wish I could stop living in this fake world,

I wish I could find the truth and myself even if it’s hard…

Knowing that it’s hard and it’s just a wish my heart made

It’s like a dream that will never come true it really hurts…

I don’t know how to end it or what to say,

But I think I’m giving up…

I wish it was different… I wish I have what it takes to do what I really want… but the truth I don’t have it…

So all I can do is stand where I am waiting…

Waiting for what I don’t even know….

But all I know that am living every day in fear and pain…

Hopeless… wishing for a far away star… wishing if I reach my hand I could hold it…

Yours: AmyBadr

8:44 PM

25-07-2015

I Want A Place Where I Can Fly...

Where ever I go whatever I say

Whatever I do

Will anything change?

Losing hope…

Not knowing what to say or what to do

Don’t know if it’s right or wrong

Don’t understand what’s the meaning lying behind the words

Don’t know if I can live and act like I know everything

Don’t know how to live in this world

What should I do?

What should I not do?

Where to run

Where to hide

When to stop

How to fall

How to get up after the fall

How to climb this mountain

How to conquer this wall to go forward

Where to go from where I stand

Should I just remain where I am?

Can I do it?

Can I do what I want?

Can I remain the same no matter what?

Where should I go?

I want a place where I feel free

I want a place where I can fly

Where I can say the truth and not get hurt with it

Where I be me not someone else

Where I can accept myself and live free

Away from all the constraints…

Can I do that?

Can I just stay away from life and its complications?

Yours: AmyBadr

1:18 AM

29-7-2014