I Wish If the Night Was Longer

I Wish If the Night Was Longer

I was just sitting there in my cold room

Holding my hot cup feeling its warmness

Listening to my music

About love and scarify and pain

All I could think of that it hurt so much hearing people stories

And what have they achieve and done in their life while am still the same

Standing in the same place with the same feeling

Always crying but there’s no change

Seasons change people come and go

And am becoming old but still standing there

Not even walking one step forward

I just stand there don’t do anything and that kill me inside so slowly

My tears keep in falling

I want change I want do something

But why I feel like I can’t

And here when my mind stops

And I feel like I want scream but no one hears me

And that’s when I finish my cup and it become cold

And everything become still

And everyone is sleeping but am still here

And that’s when I decided to come here…. To write about my story………

In my cold room all alone I open my window stay there looking around

While the air is touching my skin and I can feel it so cold

And I say maybe it will freeze the time and everything

Maybe like they say when my feet is cold I can’t feel the pain in my heart

I want it all go away and that’s when I realize it’s time for bed but I don’t want sleep

When it’s time to walk up I don’t want to it’s always like that

This dream seem so real and that feeling too

I can’t seem to do anything about it oh my god it’s not a dream

It’s real………..

And that’s when I stand there and freeze…………..

Urs: AmyBadr

4:46 AM         28-11-2011